I could remember it clearly.
First week into 2021. It was a rainy evening and I was on my way home in the car. I had just finished a near three-hour Reiki session with a lovely couple who had, at the same time, put me through a grueling Q&A about energy healing and life. Needless to say, I was physically and mentally drained at the end, yet— amazingly light-hearted.
As the wipers swept from left to right in a hypnotic, rhythmic dance, clearing my vision for what lay ahead, a song from my Spotify playlist started to play. It was ‘Hush’. My breakup anthem back in 2018 – the year when everything changed for me. As if on cue, I saw scenes from the past played out right before my mind’s eyes… those days of grief and tears… the feeling of loss in all sense of the word… the people I lost that year… the reality that I thought I’d knew crumbling into pieces… the feeling of being lost, helpless and alone as I tried to make sense of my life at that point…
So much had happened since then. How my path had evolved and transformed and still never fail to amaze me every day with a new revelation or experience. Would I have dreamt of all these back then? That I would actually have the privilege to share my life with people and to also impact people in their life? That I would actually become a healer and have clients booking for my service? NO. WAY.
I don’t have what it takes.
There is always someone better than me.
It’s never going to happen for you.
Stop dreaming.
Yet here I am, having completed a grueling session but feeling like I could do this forever. I would soak in this spirit of love and healing if this was the last thing I could have. This overwhelming feeling of nothingness yet everythingness. Suddenly it dawned on me— I might have found my purpose. And I did it against all odds.
And so, back to the present moment, in the middle of the traffic junction, I found myself crying again. Only this time, I wasn’t crying out of sadness and helplessness, but shedding tears of gratitude and joy.
“You have come a long way, my dear, and I’m freaking proud of you.” I said this to myself, meaning every word I said and wanting that wounded inner child of mine to know that all is good now.
“You did it, Karen. You did it. Thank you, Universe.”
To you who may be reading this.
I wrote this short post in the hope that you will find encouragement where you are and continue to push on to where you want to be. We may never know what lies ahead but as long as we keep believing, trusting, and plug on—
one day, I assure you, we will look back and marvel at how far we have all come.
And if you so wish, here’s the link to ‘Hush’. Enjoy! :)
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